Today marks the first day of Lent.
And all week, I’ve been sitting on some fence in my mind, trying to figure out what I’d be willing to lay down for 40 days.
Let’s be honest, 40 days is a long time.
I’ve toyed with giving up social media time or deleting all the apps from my phone or giving up books.
But yesterday, while I mixed batter for cupcakes, I stood at the kitchen counter and knew whatever I chose to give up would have to be the thing that threatened to rule my heart.
So last night, while the house slept and the Man read a book, I ran through the things that fill my life and sifted them like sand through my fingers.
And I didn’t like what was left in my palm.
It caused me momentary angst to find my art, this blog, left in my hand.
And I resisted the urge to wrap my fingers around it, naming off every reason why I couldn’t or shouldn’t or wouldn’t lay it down.
Surely, Jesus wouldn’t ask me to give Him my blog?
But in the deepest, softest parts of my heart, this truth welled up inside:
My art is the one thing that poses the biggest threat to my relationship with Jesus.
So for Lent, I’ll pick up my brave and lay down the blog, like I did in October,
I’ll get quiet and live wholeheartedly in my real life and do real life things,
And I’ll have coffee with Jesus, most every morning.
I’ll give Him space to search my heart and cut away the parts that displease Him.
And in 40 days, I’ll tell you what this time away has cost me,
Or what it has given me.
If you’ve not yet chosen something to lay at the feet of Jesus during this season of Lent, I encourage you to lay down something other than Starbucks or Diet Coke.
Lay down something that tears your heart a little.
And trust Jesus to be enough.
While I’m away, could you pray for me?
I’ve got some things going on this month that I’d not intended to tell you until they were over, but I’m feeling like a sitting duck here on Avent, so I’m just gonna tell you.
On March 7-8: I’ll be away, writing. Not writing words to read, but words to speak. And I’m not a speaker. Please pray that the Lord would order my thoughts and give me clarity. And of course, some words.
During the month of March, I will be filling in the gaps for our Rocky Mount area MOPS group steering team. We’re due to launch a brand new group in Fall of 2014. If you are local and have a heart for the moms in our city, you can hear me talk about MOPS here. Don’t laugh and please don’t share it. I prefer for it be lost in youtube space forever. And if you have a minute, please pray that God would build His team for this work.
On March 28, I’ll be away speaking the words I plan to write on March 8. I’m a breakout speaker for a Jennie Allen mini-conference in Dallas at my home church there and y’all this is a small thing, but I get blotchy even when I think about it. So please pray that Jesus will speak for me and I’ll just stand there and not cry. I’m speaking on Place and for the past few months, this theme has really been coming out in my writing. So just pray. That’s all.
Thank you for standing in my gap and praying when I have no words left to pray. And if there is something you’d like for me to pray for you about, please let me know.
I think I may just have some extra time this month.