I sit in the space between tonight’s rest and tomorrow’s work,
And in this space, I fight to choke out the urge to burn my candle at both ends.
To burn the candle at both ends means that I’m about great things, small things, mattering things,
Always lots of things.
I’m making things happen and solving all of tomorrow’s problems and the thought of the doing sets me aflame.
It makes me burn on the inside, even for just a few hours, and that internal glow of good work is the thing I’m after.
It’s the thing that licks up fierce and mighty, threatening to out shine that still, small, flicker in my deepest part.
But today, I choose bravery over the fear of being small, and I lay down my fight for more of me.
I give space for that small flicker down inside to to breathe, good and long and deep.
And I sit still enough to feel that flicker kindle into a roar of the most holy kind-
And in the sitting still, with no fight to burn my own light, I get to see God move on my behalf to accomplish the things I want and need to do, so that He receives all the glory,
And I get all of Him.
“Anything we do to get life and identity outside of Christ is an idol, even service to Christ. He doesn’t want my service. He wants me. And from that life-giving relationship, “streams of living water will flow from within” (John 7:38 NIV)”
― Emily P. Freeman
This morning, I am linking with Lisa-Jo at her place of mama glory and to be honest, I really had not planned to write today. But I saw her prompt in my Facebook feed, and well, I had used her prompt in a late night Facebook status update of my own, so I jumped in and expanded on my thought flow from last night!
I pressed the easy button, with no shame at all, and it felt good. Really good!
If you have 5 minutes, drop by Lisa-Jo’s place and catch a handful of other writers all writing for five minutes on the prompt: Fight.
You’ll be glad you did!