On Saturday, sea-foam gathered around my ankles as I watched the waves burst into glorious fury, their fullness like mighty hands unrolling onto the shore and I longed to catch the fury in my fingers, to feel the pulse of God commanding the waters to move.
I stood in the remnant of glory while the sun moved time and I watched my people romp in the cascading waters, their little bodies slick with ocean. The girls picked up broken shells while the boys sifted sand for burrowing crabs, all six of them lost in their own world, unaware of creation’s applause.
And I stood there, so aware of the presence of God, I could scarcely catch my breath.
This morning, I wake before the sun and my coffee cools before I finish the first cup. The youngest boy cries into his spelling page and the older boy erases holes into his math worksheet and I sit in the middle of them, my chin resting in my palm.
Tears fall and I press my pointed finger hard onto pages and I wonder why she just can’t get it- Why can’t she remember what she reads?
She stomps to the bathroom to blow her nose and the baby wakes from a 20 minute nap while my last baby tiptoes around the table and whispers to me, “I love you. I do.”
I reach down to muss her curls as I swoop in to rescue the baby who needs to be fed again and somewhere between the table and the diaper bag, I remember the way I stood ankle-deep in sea-foam, my feet immersed…
And I’m bent so low I can scarcely catch my breath.
For God’s glory is full in my place and I’m too distracted to see it.
Late this evening, long after I’ve put the kids to bed, I practice the art of eucharisteo, of giving thanks, and I sift my day like sand through my hands…
And love and glory are all that’s left.
And today, on a blah sort of Thursday, I’m giving away a You Are Loved necklace by Lisa Leonard Design. To enter, leave a comment below..any comment will do, but I would LOVE for you to tell me how you feel loved. Winner will be chosen at random and announced on Saturday morning, Sept. 21.
Love you guys ~