For weeks now, I’ve been turning over in my mind this idea of dreaming and my lack thereof.
And I’ve been trying to figure out how God has uniquely made me.
The me before the wedding band and tribe of kids.
I’ve spent days, furrowing my brow and thinking long and hard about my life. Why didn’t I have a dream?
I’ve engrossed myself in chores and in the tying up of loose ends. I’ve begun to dig in my heels here and find fabric to sew curtains and plant perennials in the yard and get excited about the staying.
I’ve been turning my heart towards home and God has begun to reawaken that mama part of my heart.
And all the while, one thing has been rearing it’s pretty little head in the oddest of ways and in the most frequent of ways.
In so many ways, in fact, that I cannot help but begin to ask the Lord, “Is this it? This one thought I first tucked away 6 years ago?”
So, I have a confession to make.
I might just be a dreamer.
Yeah. I know. I’m shocked, too.
I think I’ve carried this one dream around with me for years, but I’ve never called it a dream.
I first referred to it as a ministry opportunity.
Then I called it a community need.
And then I even downgraded it to a good idea.
But the thought of it makes my heart pitter-patter and when I wrap words around it and say them out loud, all of my words run together in mass chaos. I lose all focus.
Except for this one thing.
I find myself wanting to leap for joy in the middle of the kitchen… but I can’t. And so I raise up on tiptoes and beam at the dishes.
And raising up on tiptoes and beaming at a sink full of dishes makes this not just a good idea, but a dream.
I’ve waited days before calling this pitter-pattering of my heart a dream, but it is.
It’s a God-sized dream…
Still in the infancy stages.
~And no, for those of you wondering, I am not having another baby. That would not be the infancy stage to which I am referring. But yes, I would love just one more, for those of you wondering about that!
And no, I will not be having any more babies. We have officially closed up shop.
One more thing…For those of you who missed the announcement last night, the winners of Grace for the Good Girl were Marcie L. from Texas and Sue L. from Georgia! They were both notified via message last night. Stay tuned for next month’s giveaway! I’m so excited and y’all it’s not a book!