I decided to just be yesterday.
Sandwiches for dinner, on paper plates. The kids had juice boxes, so I had no glasses to wash.
And it was quite nice.
Thad and I synced our calendars last night and this morning the weight of the next few weeks feels like it is resting on my chest.
We are entering a few weeks of good things and restful things and needful things, but it’s a mental workout trying to get all of our i’s dotted and t’s crossed.
I feel myself trying to compartmentalize my life, living life in minutes and hours and not entire days. Entire days bring on panic, so I bite off only bits at a time…and I breathe in between bites.
I am choosing to trust God in these things He has given us to do: no worrying, no sleep lost, no lie believing. I won a small battle yesterday and so I am walking with a little more confidence today.
It’s no small thing when I remember to take my thoughts captive so that I do not become a slave to them.
It’s been a few days since my phone died and we have chosen not to replace it. Thad has passed on his iPhone to me and I don’t like it at all. It doesn’t feel the same in my hand. The screen is not sensitive enough. It doesn’t have my contacts in it. It doesn’t sound the same. I find it no coincidence that during this 40 days of Hush the Lord saw fit to kill the one thing I would not give up. I don’t like it, but I know this phone thing is for my good and His glory and so I count it as a gift. A gift I didn’t ask for, but a gift nonetheless.
I’m a slow learner, but I am learning.
Next week marks the anniversary of my first year of blogging. Thank you for reading and giving grace as I have taught myself how to navigate the blogging world. A year ago I had never even read a blog, or even understood how to use the computer for anything other than email and Facebook. Seriously. I have come full circle and I think I am almost not an amateur anymore.
I have hired a sweet mama who designs blogs to help me make something pretty for y’all. We should be finished sometime early next week. She has done all the things I did not know how to do and has captured me without having ever met me. I hope y’all like it.
This weekend I will be spending a lot of time tweaking my pages and pictures and making sure that we can move all of my words to my new site. I will be changing domains and all sorts of things I know nothing about. Please pray things go smoothly and that I don’t lose anything. I read some of my posts and wonder what I was thinking when I wrote them, but they hold a piece of my heart and so I would cry if I lost them.
I may be quiet over here for the next few days as I spend some time writing the stuff you guys already know.
Hope you all have a rest-full weekend!