I woke up to a chill in the air and decided that Fall had arrived no matter what the calendar read. It was still dark out when I pulled open the freezer and quick thawed the beef. Carrots, onions, and potatoes went into the crock pot before the kids’ feet hit the floor.
I called for breakfast and only Ainsley came running. I made a quick run upstairs, shook the bedsheets and tossed clothes at all of them. “Get dressed, guys. It’s almost 7:30”, I yelled at them like we had somewhere to go. I partnered them up with their buddies and ran back downstairs to pour juice.
School work was finished by midafternoon and I sat down at the sewing machine to finish the teepee I had promised to finish for Josiah. The teepee project promised to be a 3-4 hour project, but as of this evening, I have clocked 18 hours and I am still not quite done. I don’t sew. Well, that is not entirely true. I do sew, just very s…l…o…w…l…y. And I rip out a lot of seams.
Like clockwork, Thad walked through the front door at 5:30. I sliced cucumbers and celery and threw croutons on spinach leaves. I baked Pillsbury biscuits and ladled stew into 6 little bowls so that it would cool. At 6, the kids were ushered in around the dinner table and I heard groans all around the table-“Beef stew? It’s still summer, mama.”
I just smiled at them and watched the clock. We blessed Josiah and Ainsley prayed for him and the kids scattered faster than they had come running.
As Thad cleaned his bowl, I left the table to peel off my yoga pants and cardigan. I ran my hands over the clothes in my closet… the clothes that haven’t really seen the light of day since we moved to Rocky Mount.
Who needs to look cute when their whole life happens in their home?
I pulled on jeans and a cute top and decided on heels. I applied mascara and lipstick and grabbed my purse.
“I shouldn’t be long. It’s just the intro meeting tonight”, I said as I all but ran out the door.
I kissed my smelly kids on the head as I passed them in the yard. “Where are you going? Why do you have on lipstick,” they asked.
“I’m going somewhere special and you guys can go with me next week”, I said.*
I took the scenic route and the closer I got to where I was going, the more excited I became.
Please Lord, let this be a good thing. You know I am desperate for you to fill me.
Two sweet ladies met me at the door and they pointed me down the hall. I tried to walk slowly as not to draw attention to the crazy, desperate lady trying to get a front row seat. I’m not even a front row seat kind of lady, but God has a sense of humor and He sat me on the front row.
I slid my hiney onto the front row, red, velvety cushioned pew of this church. I soaked up every word spoken
And can I tell you how great it felt?? I could spill thousands of words onto this screen, but they would come out a jumbled mess. The words on my fingertips just can’t say what my heart is still trying to soaking up.
The one thing I feel tonight, as my hiney rests on the pew of my own church, is this:
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me, with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29: 11-13
When I seek, I will find…
*I went to Bible Study Fellowship tonight! Maybe this will be the well I have been looking for! The older 4 kids will go with me next week.